Thursday, November 27, 2008

Stuffs not coming together

Here's what I have and what I originally thought I'd do with it all:

Hundreds of oak leaves
Make a jacket


Hundreds of various colored maple leaves
Make a jacket
Then remake it in various fabric colors, using a maple pattern cut out

Gum, stuck to a board
Make gum-graffiti, then hang it up somewhere permanent


Miniature people made of clay
Make them after real people I know and place them in public

Several clay masks, painted and decorated
Mail them to people and organize a secret masqurade

Several tiny doll houses from life size objects (shoes, here)
Put them in the park for kids to play with


About 10 full chess sets made of plaster, unpainted
Finish and make boards, and put them in the parks for people to pay


About 2 dozen miniature penguins
Make about 100, dress them up as soldier, leave as instillation
About 2 dozen plaster rubber duckies, various colors.
Make about 100, place in the bottom of a pool or fountain




So, there you have it. My work is out of the bag.
I don't know what I'm going to do with any of it. I'll be honest: It's frustrating. I had ideas when I started, I think. Not really. I just thought "how cool would it be to see like 100 mini penguins lined up, all like little soldiers?"
I feel stuck now, because I have nothing. No, I have a LOT of nothings.
Maybe I'm just working on too much at once? I kind of miss the days when things just happened. When I didn't wait till I was finished, when I didn't even wait for the weather to warm up or the paint to dry. Or even the time I just went to walmart and bought a bag of mirror squares and glue.
Maybe I'm scared of getting caught here. It's such a small town. So... undistributed. Maybe I'm getting used to it. Maybe I've got to thinking I like it untouched, even by me.

But my mind goes there, you know? My mind eye sees that sign post painted hot pink. And it sees that bench turned into something with hands and eyes and mouth. And I want to see stuff. But... I don't know if I feel much like doing stuff. Is it reputation? Is it the 4th wall? Is it having to start over?

How about this. I need to just go and do it. How about every day for a week, I'll do something and record it. Starting Thursday. to Thursday.